"This is the very boring part of eating disorders, the aftermath. When you eat and hate that you eat. And yet of course you must eat. You don’t really entertain the notion of going back. You, with some startling new level of clarity, realize that going back would be far worse than simply being as you are. This is obvious to anyone without an eating disorder. This is not always obvious to you."

Wasted, Marya Hornbacher (via findingmyrecovery)

(via lilyflower6)

50 SHADES OF PRIVACY INVASION

  • 1. What is your best friends name?
  • 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
  • 3. What are you listening to right now?
  • 4. Whats your favorite number?
  • 5. What was the last thing you ate?
  • 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
  • 7. How is the weather right now?
  • 8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
  • 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
  • 10. Do you have a significant other?
  • 11. Favorite TV show?
  • 12. Siblings?
  • 13. Height?
  • 14. Hair color?
  • 15. Eye Color?
  • 16. Do you wear contacts?
  • 17. Favorite Holiday?
  • 18. Month?
  • 19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
  • 20. What was the last movie you watched?
  • 21. Favorite Day of the Year?
  • 22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
  • 23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
  • 24. Hugs or Kisses?
  • 25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
  • 26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?
  • 27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?
  • 28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?
  • 29. What books are you reading?
  • 30. Piercings?
  • 31. Favorite movies?
  • 32. Favorite football Team?
  • 33. What are you doing right now?
  • 34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
  • 37. Dogs or cats?
  • 38. Favorite flower?
  • 39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
  • 40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
  • 41. Have you ever loved someone?
  • 42. Who would you like to see right now?
  • 43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
  • 44. Have you ever fired a gun?
  • 45. Do you like to travel by plane?
  • 46. Right-handed or Left-handed?
  • 47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
  • 48. Are you missing someone?
  • 49. Do you have a tattoo?
  • 50. Anybody on Tumblr that you'd go on a date with?

its mega exam week so im eating sooo much :( but it could be a normal amount and i just dont know ?!?!

Had such a good body image day and Ive started wearing fake tan and i think I like it.

but my boyfriend is very amazing and always tells me that he thinks im beautiful and got annoyed last night when I refused to accept it.

Its all getting worse (TW)

Ive started to look at other girls and comparing myself to them and I’ve also started to watch what people it and think ‘how can they look like that but eat that?’ its not fair that Im so fat and everyone else is losing weight and im just getting fatter and not fitting into any clothes. I want to eat but now I can really see how Im fatter than Ive ever been and I hate it so so much.